So, the annoying period part of this ordeal is over. May you never have an 18 day menses. And for my male readers may your female loved ones never have one. So, what’s left is this low level feeling of fright. This is one of those times that my computers should be taken away from me and my research skills are a curse. I know all about fibroids, hysterectomies, and the word that won’t cross my lips or fingers as I type.
At the same time this has been happening my mania has been slowing down praise who ever. Except I haven’t been able to concentrate. Haven’t read a book in a month, which is a big deal. I usually read at least a book a week, even during school. I can’t exist without something casual to read. But, I was finding myself reading the same sentence over and over again. It was a hard semester in a sense. What saved me was a fantastic professor and a subject that fascinated me. I didn’t think it would – History of Mexico. I was able to create a time-line of the creation of the country and develop an understanding of how they became what they are today. I saw where there were mistakes made. I’m obviously not an expert, but I think I have a basic understanding of how a country so geographically close to ours developed so differently from ours. I won’t bore you with my elucidation. I’d get started and wouldn’t stop. Anyway, when it came to my papers I just took it slowly and kind of put them in little chunks that I could concentrate on. And it worked! I got an A!
So, the new med cocktail works. Yay! This blip of estrogen is not fun, but its only for a few weeks. Unless I need a … not going to even say it. Forget I was going to mention it.
I’ve been looking for some online work, most are scams. So frustrating I could scream. And looking for a money manager as I want to take it out of my mom’s hands. Its getting to be too hard on her and on our relationship. Found great lawyers, but charge too much, they are helping me find someone else. More stress.
So, yesterday did something I haven’t done something I haven’t done in a year or more. Took a seroquel nap in the middle of the day. Just popped 300 mg. and slept through the afternoon. Just wanted to shut off my mind. Felt wonderful, but won’t do it again. Scout’s honor.
Head may explode waiting for gyno appt on monday. Send good thoughts!