So, let’s get off the uterus subject. After two months of utter hell, its over! Ramping down my blessed seroquel (why oh why did it have to stop helping like it used to?) and starting the higher dosages of Abilify and Topomax was awful. I was climb the walls, spend money like water, scrub the walls with an sos pad manic. I couldn’t concentrate, couldn’t write, couldn’t even read a book. And, I’m a two book a week reader. Somehow I got through my semester with an A. When I had a paper I just chunked it into little pieces. Luckily, I was fascinated by the topic enough to get through it, and had a fantastic professor who understood my predicament.
I can read again! Finish a complete thought, and look I’m writing! It might not be great, but its something. I see things clearly now and am looking for a money manager who can take my finances out of my mother’s hands and make it harder for me to get my hands on my funds in case I have a manic spending phase again. Not a conservator, just a money manager/accountant type. I found a group of lawyers who laid out a plan, but said they were too expensive for me and pledged to help me find someone.
Now I can deal with some family crap. Can’t go into it here. I made a promise to my family I wouldn’t post anything about them. This leaves definite wholes in this blog, but a promise is a promise.
I’m working on post of a few parts about my manic trip from Sacramento to Maine. Look for it!
I understand the “scrub the walls with an sos pad manic”. Last weekend I scrubbed the all the bathrooms with a brush and a bucket of water with bleach in it. I think I finally stopped after 3 or 4 hours… what waste of a weekend.
The topomax helps once you are on it for a while. A note for you though, watch missing too many doses. For me at least if I miss more than 4 (I take 200mg 2 times a day) its almost like starting over. And one fun side effect anything carbonated tastes like malted battery acid.
Good luck on your MA.
You are right about the Topomax it took a while to start really working (I’m on a pretty high dosage 500 mg am and pm). I was wondering about the soda thing – thanks for solving that quandry for me!
When I first started it, I didn’t think I was going to make it, the side effects were horrendous. But after a month of sticking with it, I am so glad!
You actually used sos? I went through one of those cleaning bouts but just threw the bleach on the walls and then sort of wiped it around with a sponge. No one could come into my apt for like a week it smelled so strongly of bleach!
Congratulations on finding something that’s working for you. What an adventure you’ve had!
I would love it if you would share more about your financial woes. I only wish my family had had the presence of mind to take control away. Where did things go wrong for you?
That is a hard question. Its gone wrong so many times. I’ll write about it in a post soon, its a great idea!